What would you call us?

He sat right in front of me.
I couldn't even tell if I was happy or devastated that he was there.
He's the guy that I fell for the hardest.
He sat there, smiling his signature smile.
Gosh, how I loved that smile.
He never fails to make me smile. That's how happy he makes me.
The feeling I get when he's around...My gosh, it's inexplicable.
But...He loves her.
She was a good person. She could sing, speak in several languages, incredibly smart, pretty and she had a great sense of humor. How could I compete with that?
I loved the feeling of being in love, and being loved by someone.
It's just that...I feel that it's useless to love someone when you know that they don't love you back.
I'm just too tired of being hurt.
I guess I'll just stop.
But it's so hard not to love him.
He's funny, smart, witty, and good-looking.
There's nothing else I could ask for.
I loved him. He never took a second look at me.
He'd never love me. He has her, so what's the need? Little Miss Perfect is on the palm of his hands, what could be better?
He'd never look at me as more than a friend, and that brought me down.
I don't get why I let myself do this. I knew I was just gonna get hurt again, but I still took the risk. Well, I guess it's just fair because when you love someone, you risk being hurt again.

It was Valentine's Day. I made cards and brought little boxes of chocolates for my friends as usual. I gave it to them gladly, and I saw him sitting across the room, staring into space. I walked up to him, "hey, you okay?"
He looked at me, surprised that I was there, "yeah, I'm fine," he said with a sigh.
I put the box of chocolate and the card on the top of his desk.
"Well, I hope you enjoy your Valentine's," I said turning around, hoping he'd like the gift.
"Wait," he said.
I stopped in the middle of the class, not turning around.
"What's this for?" he asked, "Why are you giving this to me?"
He held out the chocolate and card in his hand.
"Why, Amy?" his voice echoed in my head.
I turned around and said, "Because," I paused, "I'm in love with you!"
I trembled as I realized that I've said that out loud, right in front of my class.
He just stood there, shocked.
Everyone's eyes were on me.
I ran out the door.
I needed to get out of there.